O Glorious Lord, some days I feel lost and drift aimlessly throughout my day. Life does not always treat me well and I wonder why things are not going my way. I smile on the outside, but on the inside I am sad. I know in my heart that I am blessed, but I do not make the effort to show my appreciation. I chase after the things of this world and neglect my time with You. In trying to master the principles I’ve been shown in Your Word, I feel I am missing the mark. I want to do what is right, but I have trouble getting control over my flesh and emotions. I purpose in my heart to do better, but somehow I lose my way. I want to live out Your call on my life, but I’m lost and finding myself questioning my commitment to You. When I seek counsel from my friends, their answers seem shallow and lack the solutions I seek. Joy has abandoned me and I hunger for its meaning. I feel like my life is built on sand and it’s shifting below me.
At these low points in my life, I turn to You for help and guidance. I feel You taking me into Your arms and the anguish, pain and doubt I’ve been experiencing is brushed aside. I hear You say in a soft, tender voice … “Here I am. I have never been far from you. I’ve kept my eyes on you wherever you’ve gone. My sword and my shield have been your front and rear guards and I’ve built a hedge around you to keep you from harm. I’ve sent you mercy and grace to uphold and sustain you. When you cried, I cried with you … and when you laughed, I laughed with you. Each step you took I walked with you, but I did not push myself on you until I was invited. I love you child and I’ve always had a purpose for your life. I have rejoiced with you in your victories and suffered with you in your defeats. Didn’t my suffering and death speak plainly of my love for you? What you are feeling comes from excluding me from Your life.”
I understand now that my excluding You from my life is what has left me hopeless and lacking. I see the error of my ways and I want You to know that I am very sorry. So, here I am, bowing before Your throne asking for Your forgiveness and inviting You to be a part of my life. I acknowledge that without You I am nothing, but with You I can be anything I set my mind to become. Troubles engulf my life because I do not maintain my faith nor cultivate my relationship with You. Sorrow has hounded me because I do not let You wipe away my tears and lift the burden from my heart. I’ve taken off on my own and have lost my way. With You by my side, I possess a compass to keep me on the right path. In Your light, I see my way more clearly and, through the Holy Spirit, I will be taught to be like You. So, I repeat … Here I am … speak to me and I will listen and do as I am instructed. And it’s in Jesus’ name I pray. AMEN!!
Isaiah 6: 8 Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here I am, send me!”